it's just a matter of time

AWAS entry panjang! hehe.
special dedicated to someone special on her 23rd birthday :)

love isn't always the greatest gift. yes love takes you high, so high that you won't wanna step on real world ever again. but they say, the higher you get, the greater is the fall. and when love takes you down, there's no easy way to get up.

a failed relationship is not as simple as it sounds. bila kau dah cinta orang separuh mati, dah berjanji sehidup semati and all of sudden you have to let go everything, demi ALLAH, it's not easy. if someone tu xrase pape after break up, HAHA boleh fikir sendiri lah kenape! takkan after 4 5 yrs of relationship pun boleh rilek2 cari awek laen, flirt EVERYWHERE kn? :) you need to be grateful fida ;p

i don't say things that just because i heard or read. it was because honestly, i know how it feels like to be at the top of the world with all the love that showers you. tapi, aku juga pernah rasa the greatest fall. the greatest fall yang aku tak pernah jangka, apa lagi bersedia. yes, i never was prepared for that greatest fall. yes i'm talking about my failed relationship.

i was obliged to love only one person. not because i have to, but it was because i wanted to. and tak perlulah aku ulas dengan panjang lebar the reason of our break-up. it wasn't a clean break-up. it was one hell of disaster when it occurred to me. it didn't took me days to recover. not even months. it was longer than that.

moving on isn't as easy as spelling it, or saying it.

of course, at this crucial moment, you'll need all the support of course, my besties are those who were at rescue when i needed someone to listen to me or to give me advices. and at this recovery period, it's normal to find that your heart doesn't sync well with your brain. whatever that your brain thinks might be good for yourself doesn't make any sense to the heart. well, it's something you can't escape. gotta deal with it.

but true enough. you can't push urself to move on. it's just a matter of time. the quote 'time will heal' has worked on me so must work on you too, heartbroken ppl. the only problem is, you can't decide when u're gonna heal but have some faith, tell yourself that someday you'll be fine again. you'll be back on your own 2 feet, standing tougher than ever before.

during the recovery period, it pains the hell out of me, i kept listening and i kept allowing the past to pass through. some might have caught me shedding some tears at the most awkward moment ever! kehkehkeh. but now, i can smile as i look back, no more shedding tears as i remember the past. it's over and done with. malah aku bersyukur tidak d jodoh kn dgn jantan keparat itu. hehe. ok, this time i mean it ;p.

aku sudah move on dengan hidup aku. cukuplah aku stucked in the past. god knows exactly how long i had to deal with it. dulu aku ingat aku takkan pernah move on, but now i proved myself wrong. and if you ever feel like you can never move on, you're wrong. it's just a matter of time. as for now, just take it slow and go with the flow. no pushing. :)

i'm grateful that i'm blessed with people who are sincere to be with me today. be it best friends or boyfriend, they're all amazing people. they helped me get through my darkest moment. they'll support you in everything you do so don't ever think you can't move on.
:)